a change..

Okay, so I may not update this everyday, but I am keeping a personal diary at this current time. Starting today, I am going back on my medication (lexapro), which is an anti-depressant, mood stabilizer. I once suffered from agoraphobia, and this medication was probably the best thing I ever did for my circumstance. But recently, I plateaued and thought I would wean myself off the drug. Of course, being human, I thought I knew better and did it too fast, which has had some adverse effects, ie: dizziness, a little nausea, and fatigue. So I have set out an 8 week plan. Starting with 10mg, and advancing every 2 weeks. I was previously on 40mg, so I am working my way back up to that dosage. My diary is set out a little like this: (this is my entry from DAY 1)

DAY 1: 10 mg- taken at 10.30pm

GOAL: 2 weeks- 8th to 23rd of November

FEELING: physical- a little light-headed
emotional- stable
mental- a little anxious

COMMENTS: After weaning myself off 'lexapro' in the wrong way, I have had adverse effects. I am going on a 2 week plan, which is (stated above).

(end personal diary entry).

So that is pretty much how it will run for the next 2 months. I think it's a good idea. When I was first prescribed to this drug, I didn't take any notes, or keep track of the physical effects. All I can remember is being very tired for the first few weeks.

Apart from the physical side of it all, I am doing this not only for myself, but my spiritual life, because I know it suffers when I'm not at my peak, physically, emotionally and mentally. I don't want my relationship with my Lord to go through what it did last time. The same goes for my family life, and the relationship with my boyfriend, Zane.

I also pray, that this diary is not only a chance for me to get out what's happening, but that someone will read it, and be encouraged and learn something from it.

(phew, I'm glad I got all that out).

Laura May.